For the first time in a long time I feel....content =)

Been a long time between blogging again....nothing much to blog about i suppose...just enjoying my life...the routine...more importantly no major dramas that used to consume me...everything seem to be in synch and i'm very much a happy camper these days.

Life is to be lived and at the moment I'm doing just that =)

Just me....taken by Lily

Dying from the heat...

Melbourne is experiencing a horrible heatwave. The last few days have reached over 40 degrees and it looks like it will continue until the weekend =( In the meantime, I'm slowly melting...my brain feels like slush! can't think straight, not to mention not being able to sleep properly =( I know I'm not the only Melbournian feeling like this....arrghh!! I want the cool change already!!!!

Moving on...

I think I'm on the up and up...finally!!! It's only been the last few weeks that I started to feel better again. I have my moments but it passes very quickly not like before. I know for sure the depression has lifted. I'm loving the new connections I've made in the last few months =) It's nice to wake up in the morning not having that dreaded feeling...

Crissi...I got your comment for the previous entry. Haha! If you notice the date, that was almost a month ago. I'm not like that anymore so don't worry! =) I know I have great friends that will get me thru anything and you're one of the special ones =) I'm looking forward to pinkalicous!! I still haven't made a decision whether to wear a dress or a pant suit...hehe...with Lily doing my hair and make-up I think i'm gonna look hot! =) Will I get picked up?? Hmmmm...wanna bet on it?? hehe

Dammit....

The holiday season was hard for me this year....the first time that I didn't have anyone special. Ye i know, for some people it wouldn't have been a big deal but I really had a difficult time getting thru it. I was dreading the whole thing =( I had a weak moment and actually texted her but as expected there was no reply. When will I ever learn??

I have my good days and bad days...I guess as much I want to pretend I'm over her...I really am not...I'm angry with myself...why do I still miss a person who clearly doesn't feel the same way about me? Is it really true that we can't help who we have feelings for? I'm hanging in there...I know I will get better but when?...I wish I can turn my emotions off...

Thank god the festive season is over...I'm just gonna work my arse off this year and not worry about meeting somebody new...I don't think I'll be ready for a long time...

Bring on 2009!!

I can't wait for next year and I know that it will definitely be better than this year! I'm feeling optimistic once again. I have been in the doldrums for the longest time...I'm not gonna lie and say that everything was a-ok in 2008. As a matter of fact I've never been in such an emotional roller coaster. I think I've had the worst possible year!! I have to look at the positives. I got to finally meet my siblings in Davao. I spent time with my aunties and cousins who mean so much to me. I met new people whose been such a blessing when I was at my worst. Thank you Fran, Crissi, Tui, Mel, Kirsty, Brandon and my BFF Lily =) I couldn't have gone thru my depression if it weren't for u guys =) It was nice to share experiences with u all, not to mention the fact that none of u complained with my constant rantings!! lol! u just let me go on and on...so thank you!! My dear friend Rachael who never wavered in her support..thank you..(this is like a speech for the Oscars! lol)...Angel..my amiga!! u know everything that there is to know about me =) thanks for being there =) My cousins Audee and Ramona...gosh!! even when i'm at my most 'makulit' they still listened to me....awwss! and don't worry guys..i wont go back there...haha! My cousins in LA especially Bobby who never got tired of chatting with me and left me funny messages on my facebook! It always made me laugh =) Arleen...yes! we gotta go see Oprah in Chicago..we'll get Bobby to babysit ur kids..hehe...I guess I'm ending this year on a good note. I can't wait for the next year to come. New experiences, new beginnings and maybe a new love??? We'll just have to see...

Depressed

Harldy sleeping.

Feeling weepy all the time.

Tired.

Heartbroken.

That's me now.